房间里有几十个小朋友，都是三到五岁左右，小蓝在最角落，他的椅子被拴在床楞上。其实我也不知道他的名字，只是看到他穿着蓝色的上衣。他吸引了我的目光，因为他一直在哭，哭得撕心裂肺。身体还不停的扭动，似乎承受着巨大的痛苦。我蹲下来，试着跟他讲话，可他根本不看我，也听不懂我讲的话。我默默的握着他的手，时不时地拍打他的背或者胸膛，希望他能好过一点。我努力地含着自己的泪水。 其实在一踏进这个房间的时候我就感到了一种从未有过的震撼。 这里是孤儿院，且都是残障儿童，很多脑瘫，也有的眼睛看不见。。。满屋子全是这样的孩子，本该是天真烂漫活泼可爱的年纪，可跟他们全都搭不上边。呆滞的目光，有的异常亢奋，有的低头无精打采，面无表情，不懂跟外界的沟通。

 

到吃饭时间了，保育员阿姨教我如何做，说小蓝吃的慢一点，但是还蛮好喂的。我哄着他，他终于停止了哭泣开始吃饭了。我惊喜地发现，每吞咽完一口他都会拍拍手，原来这是他跟我的交流方式？我不知道他所在的是一个怎样的世界，不过好在还有这样的一种交流。

 

还喂了一个白色上衣的小男孩儿，他是亢奋型的，站在椅子上，不停的用手抓碗里的饭，抓我手里的毛巾。我没办法只得抓住他的手， 他索性贴在我身上。 阿姨说这孩子像橡皮膏， 很粘人的。同去的朋友说我喂了两个最有挑战性的小家伙。

 

还有一个会笑的小孩子，他张开手让我抱。其实我基本上没抱过小孩子的，不知道有没有把他们弄到不舒服。只是觉得抱在手里沉甸甸的。。。

 

回来的整个周末我一直想着他们，心里堵得慌，终于在家里大哭了一场。

晚上10点多，隔壁想起了急促的敲门声，我也没理。似断非断地持续了大概半个小时，忽然又敲了我家的门。我吓了一跳，因为我的走廊上有个门是上了锁的，只有我和我的邻居有钥匙，这个人要是进来敲我的门必须要通过那道门。天哪， 他是怎么进来的? 这么晚了，我一个女孩子，大气不敢出。如果是找人走错门的或者是送外卖之类的，应该会扯着嗓子喊的呀。可敲门的一声不吭。碰巧我门上的猫眼也坏了，不敢搭腔更不敢开门看。他既然进得了外边的门，那里面的门不是也有办法进？ 天哪！我该怎么办？

 

过了一会儿，外面想起了呼呼啦啦的水声，好像有不少人。 他们想干吗？我吓坏了，蹑手蹑脚走到阳台哆哆嗦嗦的打了110。同时反锁了卧室的门，心想就算他们攻破了外面的门，我在卧室里还能坚持一会儿。我甚至想搬些椅子抵在门后面。。。几分钟的时间警察到了（不得不说，他们效率还是挺高的，看来纳税人的钱没白花）。　我长这么大第一次打110，　第一次看到大盖帽像看到亲人一样激动。。。

 

第二天一大早又有猛烈砸门的声音，不会是昨晚惊吓过度在做梦吧，可是声音一直挥之不去。 我终于怒了，开了门就嚷开了。没想到对方比我还理直气壮，他们是住在楼下的，我隔壁淹水了渗了了下去。他们还说昨天来敲门没人开，他们差点打了110。我晕。。。至于他们是怎么进走廊那个门的，他们也没给我一个交待。。。

两个月没有来更新了， 其实一直想来写点什么,可有时候觉得我的生活中那些个小小的幸福或者偶尔的不顺心和周围发生的事情比跟本不算什么. 直到有一个朋友发邮件督促我写…其实写了也都是些芝麻大的小事, 只是被我细腻敏感的神经放大了.姐夫说姐姐怎么都不明白为什么我给她打电话的时候讲点开心的小事都乐到天上去了, 不时发出一些拖长的夸张的哈哈声.  Well, maybe that’s just me, the real me. 跟最亲近的人展现出的最真实的一面. 可怜SJ 也要忍受我细数每天发生的琐碎的小事,还要适当的加些评论.

 

爸妈刚离开上海的时候我还挺失落的,过了几天就习惯了:

-办了健身房的卡, 就在住的地方旁边,经常去运动上上跳舞课, 长时间工作带来的腰酸背痛的问题缓解了很多.还认识了志同道合的新朋友

-中午一个人去吃饭也可以很享受,以前都是匆匆打包,现在偶尔也去到店里坐下来品味. 最近对葡京的奶茶比较感冒,从此就告别了喜来之类的了

-不时有朋友的电话,邮件骚扰,远的,近的,各种的updates,或者突然的visit 带来难得的惊喜

 

回来三个多月了,总是被问适不适应或者哪里好只类的话.怎么说呢,基本上没什么过度期,除了要适应上海横行霸道的车子(在新加坡是车让人的), 拥挤不堪的地铁(好在我坐的机会不是很多,最恐惧的就是人民广场), 还有上海的物价(我觉得自己的消费能力反而在新加坡强一些,不过最近也没什么购物欲), 还有无孔不入的黄牛们 (上次去一个很火暴的餐馆,本来看人多得排两个钟头想闪人的,结果旁边一哥们说他卖餐号,结果十分钟不到我们就吃上了), 还有还有….当然上海也有好的一面,比如很多地方玩 (我跟爸妈去了世博,杭州,朱家角,七宝…). 不过这些对我的影响也不大. 我做的工作也和之前差不多,接触的客户也都大多是 MNC,没啥culture shock. 总结一下,回来还是不错的选择,很宝贵的经验,卡卡. 当然LDR还是很辛苦的,是高度发达的通讯科技所无法减轻地…

 

上海空气太差, 我还是去北京暂时换换环境吧~~~又要出行了, o yeah~~

 

 

-这个是世博会信息服务亭的标语，感觉很亲切，而且颇有些浪漫。票买了好多，要和不同的人去，期待着世博~~~

 

爸妈终于来看我了，我又过上了“饭来张口衣来伸手”的大小姐般的日子。甚至中午都能回家吃饭，很像小时候上学时候的样子。唯一不同的是姐姐不在身边。 晚上一家人散散步，周末出去踏踏青，去了植物园看樱花，去了朱家角看江南水乡的小桥流水。。。只是最近天气不太稳定，本以为国内是一年四季的，没想到现在是一周四季，一点都不夸张。三月份下雪，四月份还有冰粒，碰到某天温度又快到20度。折腾的我又生病了。不过有爸妈的照顾，感觉上无忧无虑的，就是那种漂着的人一下子稳定下来的感觉。

 

最近俺终于也成了有身份（证）的人。没有身份证的时候，银行里不给开户，超市买把菜刀都不行，真是让我哭笑不得。

SW从新加坡来上海开会住在我家,明天就要走了.晚上她去新天地逛逛.

 

刚好我有另外一个朋友FL从新加坡被派回上海的分工司常驻.她昨天刚到,我帮她介绍了一个中介,中介联系了一套房子跟我在同一个楼.于是下了班我就陪她去看房子.然后回我家做饭. 正好SW打过电话来,我接起来叫了她的名字,FL突然大叫说我认识SW! 我不以为然地说,这个名字很常见的,应该不是同一个人吧. 我觉得她俩好像没什么交集,一个85后,一个马上要毕业的博士. 没想到两个人见了面,居然是曾经一起租过房子的室友……这下可热闹了….

上个周末去了上海周边的另外一个古镇-南翔，朋友带我去吃了传说中最正宗的南翔小笼包，游了据说是明朝就有的古猗园， 结论：任何东西一旦太出名太商业化了就与当初刚开始的本质渐行渐远了。。。周末的点睛之笔应该是朋友的老公下厨做的菜（这年头怎么都是男的下厨啊），吃馒头喝汤配菜，还是山东人做的饭亲切。

 

我的小窝又接待了一个朋友，一个人住还是可以给别人提供很多方便的嘛。

 

上个星期感冒发烧了一回，也算是抓住了冬天的尾巴。不过感谢神，两天就好了，两天里还出去见了几个客户。看来不能太娇气。。。

 

买好了锅碗瓢盆油盐酱醋，就等爸妈来起灶了。可是每天叫外卖有太对不起自己了，昨天终于忍不住炒了两个鸡蛋，泡了一个方便面再加点榨菜。吃了一口鸡蛋差点热泪盈眶，原来home cooked真是不一样。。。结论是应该勤快一点。

It’s a sunny Saturday, definitely a waste to stay at home. After flipping through my travel guide, I decided to go to Qi Bao - a small town in the suburb of Shanghai, famous for its variety of snacks. I went on the short trip alone – about one hour from town. The place is very crowded. The snacks are plenty, but not as good as I thought.

 

On my way to Qi bao, I called my fren. I should say that I am very happy when she told me her husband has gone on business trip again.  Her husband doesn’t usually travel a lot for his job, but strangely the weekend after I come to Shanghai, he went away . I am luckly to have her accompany me for another weekend. We did some shopping together. She is the first guest who stayed in my small apartment.

 

We also attended two church services today, two different styles, but one God! I got to know some frens in Church, one of them is even from the same office building as me!

 

Then in the afternoon, Mr. and Mrs He visited me. It’s an unexpected visit and they are going back to SG tomorrow. We had a good time over steamboat.

 

Praise God that He takes care of me in this city. God is faithful.

I finally moved to a new apartment, the first time I stay in an apartment all by myself! I have visited many apartments for the past week, and I have to say, it is "love at first sight" for this one I chose. The location is perfect, I can easily walk to office. It is surprisingly quiet, as if shielded from the busy CBD and shoppping mall around. It is cozy…..I am going to call it home, for at least two years.  When the housing agent brought me to visit apartments, he kept persuading me to settle down. But there is always something that makes me shake my head. I was a bit impatient when I kept searching, but I know God must have prepared a place that meets all my criteria. And this is it.

 

I was very excited after moving in, but there was a bit of trouble when the night came. I couldn’t fall a sleep, because it’s very cold! I rushed to supermarket today after work, to buy a electronic heating mattress or heater. When I asked the supermarket staff for help, they looked at me as if I am from Mars! They told me that all those things are just taken off the shelf, because it is spring now. The heater has to give way to fan! They couldn’t believe that I still felt cold… I ended up with a quilt. Hopefully with the other one I bought yeterday, I can sleep properly tonight.

 

My company’s big event finished last Friday. I can finally breathe properly. Spent the weekend with an old fren whom I haven’t seen for years. I thought it might take some time to "warm up", but we just clicked immeditely as if those years never existed! That is amazing. God is really good to bring frens to cross my path. A couple fren brought me to visit a house church last weekend.

 

O yes, one last update, I did go to xin tian di for a drink last Friday:)

 

SJ has bought me a camera in Singapore. I can’t wait to take pictures of those lovely flowers that bring the message of spring.

My flight was 1am yesterday. I ran into the HR Director of my Ex-company at the boarding gate, he is also on the same plane to Shanghai! What a coincidence. The couple who sat besides me happen to be from my hometown, we had a very good chat. I tried to work on the PPT, but my brain couldn’t function properly in the sky, so I gave it up.

 

I had breakfast (Sheng jian bao!) with a highschool classmate who has been working in Shanghai for quite some time. He is such a caring friend and gentleman, brought me around to get familiar with the place and view some apartments. I was so tired that I doesed off a few times on the cab.

 

It was the 15th day of lunar new year. I saw many firecrackers from the window of my hotel. It seems to be welcoming me to Shanghai:)

 

Initially I was not used to the weather (about 8 degree, cloudy) and I had to shield myself from head to toe. Worse still, the aircon in my room broke down and I had to work on my bed with thick blankets covering me. It was miserable. However, things get better today, I even started to enjoy the chilled air! After all, It has been a long time since I last experienced this kind of cold breeze.  

 

Today marked the very first day of our Shanghai operation. The office is located at the center of the center:). It’s just next to the Xin Tian Di (a better version of Clarke Quay). I told my colleague that we should go for a drink when we have more time. For now, let’s just focus on the deadlines.

 

Thank God for this good start. I belive we can start well and finish well eventually!

 

When I stepped out of the office building in the night just now, I couldn’t help but shouted "wow" -  What a beautiful street (huai hai zhong lu)! Many mini lanterns hang on the trees along the road, it’s just so cute! I wish I had a camera with me.